Think of it as an adventure

There comes a time in everyone's life when they have to close the chapter that they're currently on and move forward to the next chapter. Moving forward to tough, physically, mentally and emotionally. And personally, those people that are constantly happy every.single.moment.of.life get on my nerves.

Recently, I found out something that is gong to change my life, for the better, hopefully. 

I've been living in Pakistan for the past eight years and it has been - in one word- difficult. Adjusting to a completely different situation was an insane experience but I learnt a fathomable amount of things along the way. 

I found out that I'm moving back to Australia. I don't know what will happen there, or how it'll happen but I have this intense feeling that it's all going to be okay. 

I'll be living with my Dad until my Mum and younger brothers fly in at the end of the year but I'll be leaving in June. It's going to be tough to leave my Mum and baby brothers but you gotta do what you gotta do. I'm excited but at the same time, lurching with anxiety. 

In depth of anxiety or whatever this constant feeling is, I wrote a couple of things, promises to myself if you will, but nevertheless:

1. I feel a lot like Bilbo Baggins. He had an unexpected journey and so am I. I have been begging to go back since we first got here and now that I am I feel like a Hobbit. Confused, lost and hungry. But this is part of the adventure, part of the ride. So I'm going to embrace this change and make the most of it. 
2. I started to become a drone living here. I forgot how to live, be happy and enjoyt the little things. I'm now going to try to live - at least a little. Volunteer, learn new things, hang out with family members who live there. I'm going to try to go a bit higher in this hole that I've been in, that I live in. 
3. I'm going to be studying there, so this time I am not going to let my marks / grades define me as a person. 
4. Seeing as though my Mum will be here, I'm going to have to do the cooking, cleaning, shopping - all that shit. But I'm going to do them so well, that no one will know what hit them.
5. I've been quiet for a majority of my life. I've let people rule me but not now. Now I'm my own Queen. I shall stop letting people tell me what to do. I will stop being quiet and let people stamp on me and put words in my mouth.    

I honestly don't even know what's going to happen, but I hope and pray with all my heart that this new adventure is better than the last. 

MOVIE | Warm Bodies (2013)

Okay, funny story - I went to the bookshop a long while book thinking of buying the book but I couldn't remember the name so I got Beautiful Creatures instead, and while I was reading my reaction was - what this isn't funny? Why isn't it funny? It's meant to be funny? Then I Googled it and embarrassed myself in front of myself. Yep. My mother is so proud of me. 

Whaaaaaaat is it about?
A zombie and a human girl, there's love (duh) and action and the perfect amount of wittyness, irony and sarcasm.
 
Okay so basically, the zombie apocalypse happened, everyone but a few were bitten and became zombies one of them being R (Nicholas Hoult aka J Law's boyfriend). He's a different kind of zombie, he thinks and can talk, slightly, grunts a lot and has an airplane filled with things his collected. Anyway, the human girl, Julie (Teresa Palmer) meets R and his fascinated by her, mostly because he ate her dead boyfriend's brain, and takes her back to the airplane and they hang out and she's like "what they hell are you" and he's like "I don't know". Long story short, they like each other, get separated (more like she couldn't handle the zombie drama) and then he start's to miss her, giving him and all the zombies feels again, then they reunite and the world is an okay place again. 

Waaaaas it any good?
Just go and watch it, your doing yourself a favour. 

What was the last movie/ good movie you've watched?

Let's wind down with a cup of tea & random thoughts #2

Time for more random ramblings, let's go!

1. I am unemployed once again, well technically not as of right now but I've given my two weeks notice. If my students are reading this, know now, this is not your fault, the school and I never really got along - we've had our fair share of difference and I decided that the school has zero right to change me as it as zero right to change you. 
      That was my third  forth resignation letter in three years. Talk about commitment issues.

2. Now that I'm "free", I shall have more time to blog. I really want to dedicate as much as possible into the blog. Better photography, better content, just better. 

3. I have an awesome tumblr account. You should check it out sometime, you know, like if you want to. 

4. Instagram. Ugh Instagram. If you can't tell already I am not a social person, I mean AT ALL. But once upon a time, I had an Instragram, but my "smartphone" went to phone heaven, and now I have a 90's phone, hence eliminating Instagram for good. But I have a choice to get it back and start up my account again, should I? Instagram is such a vain place. I'm on the fence about this one - and probalby about everything else in life. 

So, the story goes a bit like this...

No I didn't forget about the blog - life has just been well, life. Basically it's been a little of this

and a lot more of this...

...and welcome existential life crisis again.

Long story short - people are shitty and my job was shitty so I'm leaving the job and people because I don't appreciate shitty-ness in my life. 

I am devastated if not the least, for leaving all the wonderful and beautiful girls I taught but the crap got a bit too much for my brain to handle. I mean they weRE TRYING TO CHANGE ME AS A PERSON - WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO CHANGE A UNICORN!!!!!!!

*cue my sad life story here (read pass this if you want to)

Once upon a time - actaully a month ago... my work place started to became a minefield. Everything and anything I was saying or doing started to create problems. Even wearing makeup was against the rules - what, right?! So bascally, I'm just there, checking stuff everyday like:

 

I like to think I'm an easy going teacher. I love all my students and smile at them, tell jokes and all that shiz - but apparently that's all wrong. 

So now I'm the "bad teacher teaching all the bad things because I'm bad" and honestly, I'm the person that screams internally when I eat a Happy Meal.

There is a hell lot of the story but whateves, right?

Basically, considering I'll have a hell of a lot more time in my hands, I'll be able to what I love to do:

  

Honestly, I'm still in the "what the fudgeballs is going on" phase...or is that just life? 

MUA Haul = Lighter Wallet

Online shopping is a terrible, wonderful, horrible, whimsical adventure. Some days you find everything you could possibly want and other days it's like a barren waste land. I had a good day - a great day infact! The brush I've been lusting over was finally in stock and so were a couple of lipsticks. It was makeup galore but I ended up with a lighter wallet - before the month even begins! 

 

(fyi I don't watch Degrassi)

I went a little MUA cray cray but the prices and quality are damn good. Here's what I dropped into that tiny evil shopping cart:

1. MUA Stippling Brush (F2)

I cannot begin to express how many times I cheched for this damn brush to be "in stock" and finally, on that glorious, gloriousday IT WAS! I have yet to try it but it's soft (always a good sign) and personally I love the white bit. It's smaller than I expected but I am not one to complain.

2. MUA Luxe Velvet Lip Lacquer - Funk

Jessica-Anne  blogged about the Lime Crime Velvetine Lip Lacquers and I was lusting for one soon after. Lime Crime isn't avaliable where I live but when I found out the close dupes aka MUA Luxe Velvet Lip Lacquer was avaliable I reacted a wee bit like this:

(okay a lot like this)

I got the shade "Funk" a blue toned pink. The product is supposed to go on like gloss then set like matt and last forever...I was going to pick up another shade but decided to go with one, test it out, then purchase another.

3. MUA Luxe Precision Felt Eyeliner 

I've bought three eyeliners in the past two months and hated all of them. I bought the Maybelline MasterDrama eyeliner which I hated - sticks to your skin and the after one sharpen it broke! and an Essence Liquid eyeliner which was disappointing - it was light and streaked. Being in the market for a new eyeliner, I snatched this one up in the hopes of being redeemed from this eyeliner "drama".

4. MUA Matte Lipstick - Peachy Keen & Scarlet Siren

Intially I had placed an order for Wild Berry as well (seeing as though berry lips are my go-to lip most often) but didn't receive with my parcel... I was (still am) sorta bummed but I now own another red to add to my collection and a gorgeous peachy pink - a color which I don't own. I've read a couple of reviews and the only problem that seemed most common was that they wouldn't glide on and would dry the lips but that's anticipated from a matte lip product - so now I have to exfoliate and balm my lips up! 

Most probably after posting this I will die with the immense amount of guilt for spending money. 

To Be Or Not To Be? MUA'S PowerPout in "Crazy in Love" | Review

                   

                   

Never before have I experienced such an amazing lip product! It was instant love - from the packing, to the color, to the scent, all the way down to the price! I've been lusting over the Revlon Lip Balms for a while now but they are pretty hard to find where I live so when I found this amazeball dupe on just4girls  and had a major beauty fangirl moment. Little did I know that I would fall in love with this crayon. 

The MUA PowerPouts are quite comparable to Revlon's Kissable Lip Balms and this particular shade is the darkest, berriest shade much like "Crush" by Revlon. I haven't yet personally tried the Revlon's Lip Balms so I can't say much but the MUA PowerPout's blew me away. It's super pigmented, hydrating and smells minty but not overwhelmingly. The only flaw is that is melts away easily...

This crayon- like lip balm \ lipstick has been my go to lip product and quite possibly my statement lip color at work! I am so happy with MUA's PowerPout in "Crazy in Love"! 

If you live in Pakistan, you can purchase this here for just PKR 500!

What has been you favorite lip product lately? 

Checking Examinations - SOS!

After spending the weekend checking final exam papers I came to the realization the teaching is the most underestimated job and I'm and not getting paid enough. However, spending 11 hours non-stop checking these mystical anomalies, I have compiled a list of my reactions throughout the process. Fellow teachers, let me know what you go though and how you feel why checking exam papers.

1. The Student Who Think's It's Cool To Add Two Options For A Fill In The Blank: 

2. The Student Whose Handwriting Is Worse Then My Doctor's:

3. The Student Who Hasn't Studied And Winged The Entire Exam:

By the end of it I was dead - my soul had flown away.

 But I survived only to be plummeted with 7 more piles of exams.

I hope by the end end of it I'll still be a person breathing and just a walking corpse.