Rock Bottom | What if's at 2 AM

I wonder how many doors need to shut in one’s face for a happy ever after?

Well far too many doors for me.

It’s a complete loss of self-esteem and confidence when you’ve applied for over, well let’s say, ten jobs and haven’t received a single callback.  It’s honestly the worst thing to pop your balloon. I feel like the poop emoji right now. It feels like I was ten steps forward to only fall ten steps back.

It’s just become this situation in life where just one win would be really nice.

Ugh.

It’s so frustrating to not be able to do anything and to feel this helpless. It’s a terrible feeling.

The world is a huge place with infinite possibilities, so does it seem like such a lonely and hopeless place for me?

This is so much I want to do and see but it’s not happening. I feel stuck. Nay. I am stuck. And to tell you the truth, I’d rather be peeling onions then to be feeling like this.

The world is moving on without me and I feel like stopping it and telling it to slow down and maybe wait for me. I want to move with it not behind it.

When did I stop believing in the magic of the world and start believing the stark reality of rent bills and grocery lists? Isn’t there a pause button? I’d really like one please.

Hello (again) !

It has been a long time, no see kinda situation! But I am back and with a new blog layout and a new and extremely stern attitude towards the blog. 

This blog means a lot t me but life got in the way...but I'm back and happy to be back.

1. It's nearly been six months of being married to this man that I adore...wow, time flies.
2. I am now in Australia (again) and here for good. Le hubby isn't here yet but no worries, he will be and then apartment tour all the way!
3. I got into University - finally!
4. And life is pretty good (:
5. ...and this blog will also become pretty good!

Thank you sticking around if you have and welcome if you're new!

Lot's of love,
Kulsoom 

The Doctor Who Tag

Who is your favourite Doctor?

Ugh, the hardest question has tp be the first one! David Tennet made himself so loveable and I adored his quirky-ness and his platonic relationship with Donna, but Matt Smith killed it for me! I fell in love instantly with him and I still can't wrap my head around the fact that he's gone... )': His chin is just so...perfect. 

What is your favourite Doctor Who story?

Blink. I loved that episode, it brought the Doctor Who-ism back.

Who is your favourite companion?

Donna was my favourite for a while because she was the perfect companion with sassiness and a "big sister" kind of relationship and adored their bond. Rory was another favourite of mine, with him waiting all those years for Amy and the undeniable Three Musketeers vibe but my all time favourite companion is Clara Oswald circa Series 7. I adored her courage and well, just about everything about her.

 

What was the first Doctor Who story you watched?

Rose (SO1 EO1) and it wasn't the best but I knew what I was in for, so I stuck around.

What is your favourite series or era?

Series 7, hands down. I'm not going to lie, Series 8 has kinda lost me and I'm pretty upset about it but Series 7 was the ultimate series for me.

What is your favourite pre or post regeneration story?

The Eleventh Hour was perfection.

What is your favourite TARDIS desktop theme?

What is your favourite villain/monster?

The Weeping Angels - twisted enough to leave you freaking out.

If you're a Whovian I tag you and if you're not - RUN and watch the show!!!

Shaadi Bells ♥ The Wedding Day Eye Look

I went for a subtle, bronze-y gold eye look with winged liner and loads of mascara. It was quite easy and looks great on light brown eyes and looks even better when eyes are open...ha ha.

Products used:

- Too Faced Natural Eyes Palette 

- MUA Undressed Me Too Palette

- Rimmel Exaggerate Eyeliner in "Sable"

- Makeup Revolution Liquid Eyeliner

- Rimmel Wonder'Full Mascara

- Benefit They're Real Mascara

- Nyx Jumbo Eye Pencil in "Yogurt"

Shaadi Bells ♥ Updates of the Day till the Day!

Shaadi in Urdu and Hindi mean wedding and I found that seems to fit the title of this new series perfectly. Shaadi Bells - updates about the Big Day till the Big Day. There are only seventeen days left till I become someone's wife which is just as surreal as when the Eleventh Doctor regenerated. So here's the first "update" of what's going down. 

1. In Pakistan, there are two days to the wedding - the Baraat (which involves the bride to sign the wedding papers and leave her maiden home) and the Valima (a dinner hosted by the groom's side for the bride's family and his own) - which means I needed two glammed up dresses. Typically, the Baraat dress is red but as the unconventional person I am, I opted for a coral-gold pink dress with a long shirt and skirt with heavy gold embroidery. The Valima dress is a gorgeous creme coloured dress with handwoven flowers (pictures shall be up in the next blog post!) Both dresses were handmade.

2. I am doing my own skincare and makeup. I don't trust saloons for makeup at all. I am not one for the typical cakey makeup brides tend to choose (whatever floats you boat) because in the end it's just one day in your life and I am not clogging up my pores to look like an evil, cakey snow queen.

3. The wedding is on the 5th of January, 2015.

4. I am extremely nervous and have been having panic attacks daily.

So hopefully, the next couple of posts should entail makeup for the day, pictures of the dresses and stuff like that!

And also please follow me on Blog'lovin and Instagram, it makes me oh so happy!

The Crayons | Revlon Colourburst Lip Balms | Review

Okay, before you laugh at me, I know these are old but love doesn't have an expiry date. When I was in Australia (I came back to Pakistan, I dreaded it, about three weeks ago) I picked up the Revlon Matt Lip Balm in Unapologetic and  fell in love. In my old posts, I was raving about the MUA Power Pouts and how comparable they are to the Revlon ones and I wasn't disappointed, actually I was quite pleased, obviously, hence the blog post. 

Priceline had come out with a box set of five of the Revlon Cloudburst Lip Balms, two matt and the rest lacquer for $34.95, a hefty price but I couldn't not get so I did and I've been a happy panda since. They all the the iconic peppermint feel to them when applied and come in a crayon-like form. They are prone to melting to I would recommend that they're put in a cool area, they can't be paraded around, sigh.    

The box set came with:

Provocateur (Lacquer); a pigmented true red with iridescent glitter that doesn't show up on the lips;

Demure (Lacquer); a sheer nude peach pink with a gold frost finish but doesn't scrunch up on the lips and plays well as a "over a lipstick" colour; 

Whimsical (Lacquer); a pigmented lilac-y fig purple with iridescent glitter that again doesn't show up on the lips with extremity; 

Elusive (Matt); a muted brown-ish pink that would look good on all skin tones and wears and dries matt; 

                                                     

Sultry (Matt); a brick red-ish brown that wears and dries matt.  

Like I said before, I had purchased Unapologetic beforehand, which is an absolutely beautiful bright pink that is wearable and wears and dries matt. Love. 

All in all, these babies are the perfect quick lip fix as far as being easy to apply, travel friendly, variety of colours and budget friendly as well. Personally, I adore the matt balms because they are hydrating enough but have the perfect matt finish, not drying on the lips at all. 

They are on point.

The good, the bad and the in-between in the TV realms.

This is a no-picture blog post. You have been warned.

Being the self-proclaimed connoisseur of TV and film, new TV shows are a highlight of my oh, so fun life. Sad, innit? And in the TV industry, new shows tend be come up in the autumnal months and last till the early days of the next season (which I can't remember at the moment, don't judge) This year was no exception to new, exciting and equally so lame and try hard TV shows, some of them being A to Z, Red Band Society, Selfie, Scorpion and the much anticipated TV shows such as The Flash.

However, as the TV industry goes, many TV shows are cancelled within there honeymoon stage because of low ratings, zero to nothing viewership of just for being plain bad. Examples being A to Z, don't get me wrong I was anticipating the show to be a good one but the beginning was kind of the best part if compared to the rest of the episodes. The plot was predictable, characters were cliche, and the script was trying way to hard #newkidontheblocksyndrome. It could have been a hit but it became a clear miss after the pilot aired.

So there's the bad shows that we can move on from without any regret, but then there are the shows that touch your soul (hyperbole is on point today.) Karen Gillian wore a wig for her role as Eliza Dooley in a modern adaption of My Fair Lady aka Selfie. It was a long shot for the TV show to become one of the hits like HIMYM and so on but I love the premise of the show. Henry brought the anty things in society to light in a "poker face" manner which I applaud, loudly. Gillian's character was far too Beverly Hills-y to make it but she posed well for the few days. I'm sad to wave the red headed WiFi lover and Poker Face Henry goodbye. 

Now for the good stuff. I root for the underdogs and if there's a group Sherlock-type-geniuses running around fighting bad guys, you know I'll be watching, plus it's better if their hot too, just saying. Scorpion had me hooked from the first scene. You've got drama, a hot nerd, action, a hot nerd, mild romance, a hot nerd, and humor, and a hot nerd. The show revolves around a group of highly intellectual individuals that team up with the Government to solve crimes. Sounds redundant, but the show itself is executed with slight touched of humor at appropriate timings, action to keep us glued, good plot lines that are well connected with the outlook of the show and mild romance, enough for the audience to crate OTP's and so on.  I have to disagree with the mixed reviews and pray that they keep the show on and going, because I am #TeamScorpion. If there's a season six of TVD, surely there can be a season two of Scorpion. (Elyes Gabel aka Walter O'Brien = holy handome man)

Red Band Society also caught up in the flames of having mixed reviews and I have to say I didn't jump on the bandwagon instantaneously. The melodramatic teen show revolves around teenagers  in a fancy ass hospital and the problems they face as individuals with an illness and hormones of a teen. I don't know, but maybe the whole theme of romanticising a disease (after TFiOS), Red Band Society calls from a distant place rather than reality. However, with that said, it is a TV show and it delivers drama, romance and the odd action here and there. If only the writers could inject a bit of realism into the plot... #itcouldbeworse

There you have some of the worse, best and in-between shows of the season.

What have you been watching? 

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"What If's" at 2 AM...

You know that feeling you get when you dive into water. The initial blackness and uncertainty gets you confused and it takes you a few seconds to reappear on the surface of the water and see things clearly again? Yeah, that feeling.  I get that feeling when I think about my wedding.

I am getting married in 2 months and 15 days. In the eyes of many, that's 2 months and 15 days to live life to it's fullest, rock and roll, party and all that jazz and to the eyes of the many others, that's 2 months and 15 days till my life becomes perfect with the man of everyone's dreams. I'm not even close to either sides - for me, that's 2 months and 15 days for my mind to wrap itself around the actual context of what's going down - the dinner parties, the dresses, the smiles, the fights, the flowers, the yes's, the no's and all that in between. I'm talking about all the nitty gritty in-between-sofa-like stuff that people barely think about - how am I going to excuse myself to use the bathroom? What if he likes Tom and Jerry (a Pakistani cult favorite)? What if? What if? What if???? I wish I could flick all those "what if's" out the bloody window and take a breather and actually think to myself - What if he's okay? What if it turns out alright?...

...but my mind never let's me think happy, unicorn and rainbow-like thoughts. Oh no, it'll dwell upon all the shit it can possibly gather in a second (or less) and then the thought cycle begins and no, it doesn't just stop. People have romanticised the stress and actual real life worries of a "bride-to-be" (in my situation) to be absolute desolate. "Who care's about all the fighting?" say's one; "he'll bring you flowers" say's another. "Think about how beautiful married life will be" is an infamous line - oh and I have thought about it, long and hard and all that I can come up with is either a role Sharukh Khan has portrayed or a oil commercial in Pakistan and both have the realism to an absolute zero. 

FYI, marriage ain't about the cupcakes and pre-bridal shenanigans, it's not about the bags or shoes, it's not even about the flowers he may suddenly arrive with one fine day - hell no. Marriage is about the compromises, the loyalty and the silent vow of everything-ness and maybe it's just me - but doesn't that freak you out just a wee bit? 

I am not backing out of anything. I don't do that. I face my "what if's" even if I don't want to because that's life, but all I want right now is something to float on, because I was never one to dive into water in the first place. But now that I am - a float and some goggles would be nice. 

Whimsically Bewitched | The Change

It's been a long time coming. I've been wanting to update my blog's name, outlook and some of the content for a while but I've struggled and struggled trying to find the perfect name that would sum up my entire blog and so on. But it came to me while I was eating turkish delights and browsing on some online shops - "whimsically bewitched". 

The change or update doesn't at all in any way mean that the blog is changing. I needed a "makeover" if you will. The content, style and everything else shall remain the same and if anything get better. My voice has not changed at all throughout my blog posts.

I hope you all understand my "makeover" and give the blog that your's as much as it is mine - all the love and respect (: 

Love,

Kulsoom xoxo